Take THAT, MS! I Win!

Wow!  What a weekend I just had!

Many of you already know this, but I have Multiple Sclerosis (MS), and it is not any fun.  I was diagnosed back in 2001, and it has really been a crazy ride.  I really never know what each day will hold until that day is here.  On some days, I walk just fine, and then on others my right leg wants to jerk around and act crazy.  On some days, I can see just fine, and then on others, everything is double.  On some days, the pain and burning sensation in my legs is almost unbearable, while other days find me able to run.  On some days, my speech is slurred to the point that I sound drunk, while on other days I can speak to thousands of homeschool moms from a podium and not miss one beat.  MS is a strange disease for sure, and it has taught me to live each day to its fullest, because I never know what the next day will hold.

Well, this weekend, I fulfilled a dream! I walked in a 5K and FINISHED!  It was NOT easy.  I stopped at least 10 times and took a break.  I stayed at each water station WAY longer than anyone else.  I’m pretty sure that I was one of the last ones to finish, but I crossed that finish line with the biggest smile on my face!  Just think… 8 years ago, they were measuring me for a wheelchair!


Well, like with most things, there is a price to pay for the best things in life.  So today I am paying.  I haven’t had this much pain in quite a while…. but every time I move and feel that burning sensation down my legs, I have to smile.  That sounds strange, right?  I just can’t shake the “I did it!” feeling from when I crossed that finish line.  This pain is rough, but it is worth it.  I accomplished something that I truly believed I would NEVER do.  If I never do it again, that’s fine ~ at least I can say I did it.

This 5K was called “Run or Dye”, and I did it with some friends and family.  It was an amazing experience, and I hope to someday do it again!  (And YES, that IS a tutu I’m wearing! LOL)

Now back to my comfy recliner where I will probably be for several days…. but I have a smile on my face and am grateful to God for giving me the strength to NOT let MS define me… for giving me the strength to push myself beyond what everyone else says a person with MS “should” be doing.  I refuse to be defined by my disease.  Instead, I will conquer all of the hurdles that I can while I am able.  It feels good…even when it hurts.



Cyndi Kinney


Take THAT, MS! I Win! — 9 Comments

  1. Cyndi,just wanted to let you know how very proud of you, we are! I just read your blog, and just amazed at what you have been dealing with for so long. I read it to Jerry just so we both know how devastating your symptoms can sometimes be . I had to stop every so often while reading it to Jerry, because I kept choking up. Love you very much, and am always wishing the best of health for you. Praying for better days for you!! You have a lot of grit,girl, Definitely makes you a winner in my book!!! XOXO..Gail

  2. So proud of my daughter, Cyndi Kinney! You are awesome! Also proud of her family and that they could all share this experience as a family. You deserve some time in that recliner, but I know you will not be there long. Love you!

  3. Congratulations on your accomplishment. Last year I walked my first 5K. It was something I wanted to do for my 50th birthday. Since then I have struggled with my health and I probably couldn’t make it to the end of the block. But I did it. (Take THAT, MSK! I win!) And like you I never know what each day will bring, but each day is a beautiful blessing for which I am thankful. I appreciate and love your post. Glad you won and wrote about it.

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